When I turned thirteen, I joined a youth fraternity that was
aimed at young men. The organization does a tremendous amount of good work in
the communities where a chapter is located. The people who belonged as young
men have gone on to be some of the most respected men of their communities.
Some have even obtained national and international status. I was told when I
was being recruited for the group that once I was in, my membership alone would
be enough to get me into places that other people couldn’t go. Bright a boy as
I was, I had no idea what that meant. I decided to join because most of my
friends had abandoned our local Scout troop (which I was a part, too) and
joined. I also wanted to know what a “fraternity” would be like. In my mind, I
pictured a fraternity being a highly secretive organization where everyone wore
crazy costumes and where, as part of my initiation, I would have to ride a goat
or drink lamb’s blood. Reality was nothing like my exciting visualizations. For
initiation, I had to memorize a few lines and repeatedly say “I will” after a
series of very serious questions. In all honesty, it was rather boring. I left
the group a few weeks later and stuck with the Boy Scouts where I eventually
earned the rank of Eagle.
Gina Welch did something similar. However, she wasn’t
curious about a young men’s fraternity. She was curious about a segment of a
particular religion: evangelical Christians. As a young woman from California
who came from a Jewish background, but was an atheist, she had been hearing a
lot about “evangelical Christians” in the news. According to the types of media
she paid attention to, these people were the reason her candidate had lost the
past two Presidential elections to a rich cowboy from Texas. She wondered who
these people were, what made them tick, and why did it seem there was such a
divide from her own life and theirs. To better understand “Evangelicals” she
went undercover at Thomas Road Baptist Church, the church started and ran by
Jerry Falwell. In order to get a better perspective on things, Welch pretended
to be someone who was seeking answers. She joined a Bible study. Eventually she
faked a conversion and was baptized. She attended worship services faithfully
each week, joined a young adult singles group, and eventually went on a
witnessing mission trip to Alaska. She sometimes agonized over her deceit
because she soon came to see many of the people she was associating with as
real people and one of them became so close to her that they actually became
friends.
I really enjoyed IN THE LAND OF BELIEVERS. The book is well
written and, though it tackles some difficult issues, it’s easy to read.
Perhaps that’s because instead of an expose it’s a memoir. There are
descriptions of events and conversations that the author has that are
startling, if not shocking. However, as the author eventually learns, all of
the people she meets aren’t exactly the same. They have a core set of beliefs they
all agree upon, but beyond that they can be very different.
There were times that I was fascinated by what I read; not
so much by what the author encountered, but by her own reactions and
interpretations. For instance, the author describes that during one Sunday
while singing, she experiences what she decides to describe as “Feeling X”.
During this time, she doesn’t enjoy most of the songs she sings in church and as
she mentions near the beginning of the book, she still viewed the people she voluntary
decided to surround herself with as "shrill and prudish, they loved bad
music and guns and Nascar, told corny jokes, and spoke in sound bites.” She can’t
explain it and has no idea why it happens, but she gets this new, strange
feeling. From the way she describes it, this new sensation is comforting and
positive. Since she doesn’t know what it is, she begins referring to it as “Feeling
X”. As the story progresses, Welch finds herself experiencing this emotion more
often. I was fascinated by this account because Welch never seems to actually seriously
consider that, perhaps, “Feeling X” is actually God or his presence. If one is
truly open to all possibilities, then even that possibility, no matter how
improbable, could be possible.
What I found most fascinating by the whole story is how
little the author seemed changed by the experience. At the end of the novel she
tells her friend Alice, “Church had changed me…I loved having the sense of
community and also that serious, regular, self-inquiry. Our relationship had
changed me; feeling so happy in our friendship had made me think differently
about Christians.”
Friendships are important and I’m glad that the author now
thinks differently about Christians, but beyond that, how did her life change?
After she quarantines herself from all church activities as a way to detox
herself from the life she had been living, it seems from the text that the
author went back to being the same person she was before the whole experience.
Granted, once we experience something we are never the same people because each
experience changes us. Still, beyond the section in the epilogue, I never get a
sense from the text exactly how the author changed as a result of her
experience.
There are many Christians who might find it difficult to
read IN THE LAND OF THE BELIEVERS. Some will find it difficult to read because
of the way “evangelical” is used. According to the Bible, all believers should
be evangelical. However, the term has a different meaning when used by those
outside the faith and it is this use and its perception that some will take
issue with. Other Christians will find the book difficult to read because they
will let their emotions overcome them (something that Welch points out in the
book as a kind of fault of the people she worships with for two years) at the
deceit of the author in pretending to be converted, her fake baptism, and the
two years she spent hiding her true life from all of her church “family” and
friends. Personally, I can’t fault the author for what she did. I can
understand why someone completely unconnected from Christianity would pretend
to be a Christian for two years. After all, there are many people who attend
churches who every Sunday for years on end for most of their lives who do the
very same thing; they pretend to believe but never really do. Welch was correct
in that the only way she could ever get a true inside perspective was to
pretend to be something she is not because even though many of the people at
Thomas Road would have been open and honest with her, she never would have been
a part of the “inner circle”. She writes about this somewhat when she talks
about a meal she attended just before Christmas when she was still pretending
to be someone who was seeking. Despite her deceit, at least Welch eventually
admitted what she did and came clean.
I think Christians can benefit a great deal from reading IN
THE LAND OF BELIEVERS. I am a Christian and I think it’s beneficial for us as
believers to really know what people outside of the faith think of us. Though we
are not of the world, we are IN the world.
What I found most fascinating by the whole story is how
little the author seemed changed by the experience. At the end of the novel she
tells her friend Alice, “Church had changed me…I loved having the sense of
community and also that serious, regular, self-inquiry. Our relationship had
changed me; feeling so happy in our friendship had made me think differently
about Christians.”
Friendships are important and I’m glad that the author now
thinks differently about Christians, but beyond that, how did her life change?
After she quarantines herself from all church activities as a way to detox
herself from the life she had been living, it seems from the text that the
author went back to being the same person she was before the whole experience.
Granted, once we experience something we are never the same people because each
experience changes us. Still, beyond the section in the epilogue, I never get a
sense from the text exactly how the author changed as a result of her
experience.
IN THE LAND OF BELIEVERS is a fascinating book that I highly
recommend especially for Christians. Non-believers can enjoy the book, too, but
I think Christians can take away the most from reading the book.
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